Hey, thanks for sharing. I can very much relate to what you are writing. I believe, that although weight feel like a hypocrites, and although we might think that all our flying friends are hypocrites, too, that we are not. And they are not. If we were, it would be so much easier to change for all of us.
Instead, it shows how co-constituted we are with our environment. There is no escape to purity. Living a truly sustainable life is impossible in the Anthropocene. We are always already entangled - to the good and the ugly. There is no simple or linear way out. We cannot not participate. (At the same time, that doesn't mean that simple and linear solutions are not part of the equation 😊)